We meet near the park. Entryway to the woods. Paths lined with trees and nature's music.She takes in a deep breath. Nervous.
We can all admit belief and unbelief can co-exist. Often.
She knows the goal. She knows the sweat that will moisten her brow. She knows the pain the body will feel. She knows the unbelief, the daily lies she speaks "You can't do this."
But oh, sweet friend, you ARE.
I encourage her with the thumping of shoes. The one stride in front of the next. The motion forward. I speak "You can."
And we begin to run.
The rain pours down and mixes with her tears. Doubt builds and she wears it like her favourite Hoodie. Familiar. I know she wants to quit. I know it is easier for her to leave this goal incomplete, then to finish it with the weight of hurt she carries with her.
I've been there.
I've dressed myself in the same garb of unbelief.
And I realize I don't believe in the power of God when I live like all things difficult or filled with pain are impossible obstacles to overcome. I don't believe in the power of God when I doubt the resurrection of a dream to be achieved. I doubt the power of God when I have faith for others but not myself.
But God is mighty in power to equip and accomplish His work within us.
Us weak. Him strong.
It's in the motion forward. The pushing through the dark spaces that God emerges and light fills us with resurrection hope. It's in the first step, then the second step, that He propels us past the unbelief into belief.
Jesus looked at them and said, "With man it is impossible, but not with God. For all things are possible with God." ~Mark 10:27
For faith is a gift not a virtue we can self-manifest, but a precious gift given by the hands of God. We are His resurrection people. He breathes LIFE, and we too overcome the grave. The graves that keep us bound in fear. Doubt. Death.
The same power that raised Christ from the dead lives inside of us? And we doubt?
With emotion still welling-up, her expressions overflow, my friend carries on. The rain still pours, cleansing and washing the fears away as she finishes.
Sometimes, all we need is a little encouragement, resurrection power, to know we have a God who brings life to the areas we thought were dead. We can lean on Him in our overbearing times of weakness. A God who speaks truth into our hearts, when we would rather hold onto fear. A God who doesn't require our focus to be on us, but on Him and all He has accomplished on our behalf.
Let us believe in His power to ignite us to be all He has created us to be.
His children. His witness of glory. His power manifested.
Oh, sweet friend, you ARE all those things...
Now continue to run into them.
No sooner were the words out of his mouth than the father cried, "Then I believe. Help me with my doubts!"
(Mark 9:24 Msg)
Do you struggle with belief and unbelief co-existing in your life?